Shine for me- a poem

Shine for me

It's raining where I am

And normally

Rain is just fine with me

Normally,

I'd rather it rain than shine

But today,

Today the rain feels different

The drops

Feel heavy

As if filled with the weight of

Heartbreak

Or rather

Longing

Yes, that's it

Longing

Is it raining at home?

Because its raining here

Where I am

In this bed

It is raining

Clouds so heavy with

The pressure of that

Longing

That they can't help but cry over this bed

And the wind

The wind is unbearable

This storm

Is so bitter

And so cold

That I'm starting to question

If its really September anymore

Or did Jauary pay me a visit

In this bed?

But no matter the month

Or day

Or year

I can't take this storm anymore

So would you please

Please

Shine for me?

Okay- a poem

Okay

It's only 6o'clock 

On a Friday

And I'm cryin over you

 Agin

 For a third time

Whatever you've done to me

Whatever spell you cast

Whatever bewitching  gaze

You threw me

 Threw me for a loop 

Through the haze

Got me in a daze

And this mist

Hurts

Every time I tell him

Thank you 

for complimenting me

I'm thinking of you

Wishing you were the one 

saying it

Remembering when you used to be the one 

saying it

This hurts

I gave you my heart

An haven't gotten I back yet

But that's okay

Because you have me something

In return

You gave me an anchor

With your name

Etched on the side

To remind me

Of the heart that you still have

This anchor has me chained

To the bottom of the ocean

And though trying to hold on

I don't know if I can hold my breath

Any longer

This anchor

Keeps me from trying

To fly again

Because even if I were to

Wash up on shore

And try to soar

I'm still chained to your name

Still chained to you

Still stuck on you

And I hate to say it

But it almost makes me wish I

Had the courage to

Fuck you

When you asked me to

then maybe 

You'd still love me

Maybe this wouldnt be happening

But now I remember

That it is

This is happening

On a Friday night

At 6o'clock

While I'm crying over you

Again

For a fourth time

And in the end

All I've got to say is

'I miss you' 

And in the end

All you said was 

'okay'

Okay?

I only wish

I was as 

'okay'

As you are

All I'm asking for 

Is a little

Understanding

A little

Information

And maybe even a little

Pity

Now I don't think 

that's too much to ask

Okay?